Part 24: In Rage In Weakness

In anger I am now

In anger like fire

In anger that burns everything in sight

In anger that sees no friends

In anger that does not seem to care

In anger I Burn

And I burn also in rage

Rage like an erupting volcano

Rage that knows no bounds

Rage that sees no limitations

Rage that destroys all around

Rage that seeks no reason

At least not in the then and the now

Thus

In Rage and in anger when I exist

In Rage and in Anger I am feared

But alas

In Rage and in Anger, I am weak

It is then that I am most vulnerable

For I act then but not after thought

And I speak hence but not always what I mean

Causing more damage than existed before

For in Rage and in Anger, you control me

In Rage and in Anger I am a slave

A slave to thoughtless actions

A slave to all my weaknesses

A slave to him who enrages me

… in MY rage and anger… YOU WIN!!!

Part 23: A heart, its questions and the fears of a Common Man

What if you don’t know me
What if when you try,
What if I take off all my masks
What if that makes you cry?

What if you STILL love me
And wish to walk by my side,
What if then the storms of my life
Drag you into high tide?

What if you STILL love me
And years pass by,
What if someone then asks you
Was it worth loving this guy?

What if you then look back
What is it you would see?
Would it be worth all that precious love
Or just life’s tragedy?

What if the latter you consider
Is what I now fear?
For I’d rather be someone all alone,
Than hurt someone so dear.

(. . . to be continued)